I’m Leaving You

Kjærlighet / Norway / Reise / Tanker / Vennskap / January 21, 2016

Life can feel like driving past a fence at high speed… You see only a glimpse of happenings between the fence posts. Slow down, I want to look closer at this scenery, WAIT, I missed that, hey!
I’m home… Fuck… I don’t know how many times I have woken up not knowing where I am. Okay, that must have sounded completely wrong. What I mean is that I have been so used to travelling to new places that waking up in my own bed in Norway is just unreal. I’m restless. I’m ready to move on again. My partner in crime, travel, and life is now in San Francisco… I’m missing what I had when we were travelling; an unpredictable day ahead! Now things are blurred into each other just like an everyday soup of normalness. I’m a traveller at heart and my passport is running out of pages. Nice problem to have, you might think. Well, sorry to break it to you: It’s not! I now no longer feel like home in the place I should call home.

For those of you who have followed me for a while, know that I have a deep attraction for this one specific place. This place is the only place I’ve ever felt like I could one day settle down in. There is something so inviting with this crazy and unpredictable city, and I’m not even a city girl! It’s the place where a sweet recognisable smell is flowing through every corner of the city. Everyone has this foggy smile dangling from their stunning California faces, and the liberal attitude is running the show. Literally. It’s a colourful show! We all know which place I’m talking about: San Francisco. I’m moving… I’m leaving Norway behind and I’m repotting my roots into a golden ground. Who knows, maybe San Francisco will be the lotion that cures my extremely itchy feet? Probably not, but it might become the place I’ll call my homely flower pot.

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frozen

Today is my last day in Norway.
The frost is biting my skin. It hurts, but it’s not my skin that is hurting. Though, it is the same kind of harmless pain as coldness can do to you. It doesn’t kill you… So I guess it only makes you stronger. A smile has frozen on my face after I waved goodbye to the Norwegian winter. The pain is under my skin, deep under. It’s a pain that reminds me that I’m moving on. It’s a good thing, Renate. You want this! And I really do. My “soulless redheadness” is that smile. It’s a smile that is on the edge of being fake, however, I think it is as honest as I’ll let myself be about the subject. I’m smiling because I’m moving onto something better. It’s the same kind of smile as you would do to your cheating ex when you finally move on to someone better, hah! Norway, your cold kiss will always be memorable, but I’m starting a warmer life; a steaming hot thing with California. So… See ya, baby!

drammens-elva

 

Best Regards
Renate

Quote Of The Day:
“And I realized that there’s a big difference between deciding to leave and knowing where to go.”
― Robyn Schneider






29 Comments

on January 21, 2016

Så fine bilder. Men jeg vil ikkkkkke at du drar. Trist er det. Men ønsker deg bare masse masse lykke til i ditt nye liv i Sanfransico. Det blir super bra. Kos deg masse og glad i dere begge to jenta mi. Klemmer fra mamma som gråter litt

on January 21, 2016

Wæææææ, dette er veldig trist! :´( MEEEEEEEEN UTROLIG SPENNENDE! Du er ei tøff ei med tæl i nesa!! :D Gleder meg veldig på deres vegne, nyt det!! Nyt San Fransisco sammen!! Blir artig å høre hvordan dere får det!! Sender mange varme klemmer <3

    on January 21, 2016

    Lise, du er rett og slett best <3 kom ned etter meg! I need you :*

      on January 21, 2016

      <3 Skulle veldig gjerne gjort det!;) Men må nok innrømme at jeg feller noen tårer med Marit! Men er sikker på at dette blir en fantastisk opplevelse!! :*

on January 21, 2016

Gorgeous! Congratulations on moving and replanting – it can be such a scary and daring move – but you won’t regret it! Best of luck to you!

on January 22, 2016

Your photos are amazing! Wow! Goodluck with it all!

    on January 22, 2016

    That’s so nice of you, thank you :D !

on January 22, 2016

I can trully identify with the not knowing where you are sleeping or the “home doesn’t feel like home”. I’ve experienced it after living in Canada and then coming back to Argentina. Congrats on your decision! :)

on January 22, 2016

Aw! I moved my roots across the U.S. away from my friends and family but I can’t imagine moving from one country to another. It will be a big change but it will be worth it. Congratulations for this big decision and good luck!

    on January 22, 2016

    Thank you so much, Jess :) I really appreciate it <3

on January 22, 2016

Gorgeous photos! Best of luck with the move, you are going to have an incredible time!!

    on January 22, 2016

    Thank youuuu! That’s so kind of you :D

on January 22, 2016

Beautiful photos! And I would love to see Norway. Goodluck on your move!

    on January 22, 2016

    Thank you so much, Janna :D Norway is beautiful, but the winter can be a challenge for some :P

on January 22, 2016

I love the way you write, very powerful! Look forward to reading more from you x

    on January 24, 2016

    That is so kind of you <3 thank you :D

on January 22, 2016

The frosty landscapes are so beautiful, but I understand why you are moving to pastures warmer! I would also love to move somewhere warmer and the UK isn’t nearly as cold as Norway!

    on January 24, 2016

    Haha, uk does also have the bloody constant rain on top of the coldness, so I know exactly what you mean :P

on January 23, 2016

stunning photos

on January 24, 2016

to my best friend in Norway. going to miss you here…but with a promise to see you soon in SF:)
all the best

on January 24, 2016

Have fun in Cali! San Francisco’s amazing!

on February 3, 2016

Wow, så spennende! Gratulerer, Renate! :) Gleder meg til å lese spennende tips og poster fra San Fransisco i tiden fremover – masse lykke til!

    on February 3, 2016

    Bare å glede seg for her kommer masse godsaker fremover :D tusen takk <3



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